I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying. – Michael Jordan.
I’ve never really been good at accepting failure, but then again nobody is good at failing I guess. I’ve been quite hesitant to share this personal experience because I fear that others might see me as a failure and it’s not something I’m proud to share. However, it occurred to me that if I really want to inspire others with this blog, which is my main aim, I’m going to have to learn to take the good with the bad. So this is what happened…
Last weekend, I participated in a casting for Metropolitan’s Belux modelling contest. I had stumbled upon their sponsored post on Instagram several times, which led me to their website. I saw that they were holding castings at various locations in Belgium, and Wijnegem Shopping Center in Antwerp, was one of them. I read about all the requirements and was a bit disappointed to see that the age limit for girls was 22 years. I didn’t let that discourage me too much so I decided to immediately email them, letting them know that I had exceeded the age limit with one year, while at the same time inquiring if age was a big issue. A week later I got a reply saying that I should go to the casting regardless of my age, and that they’d decide there, once they’d seen me in real life.
So when the day finally came, I put on some skinny jeans and a simple top, and dragged my boyfriend along (I seriously don’t know what I would do without him). I tried not to think about it too much and I praid to God asking him to grant me the serenity to accept whatever decision the jury made. Once we got there I filled in some documents, a contestant number was handed to me and we stood in line, patiently waiting for it to be my turn. Before we knew it it was my turn and the jury called me forward to present myself. They asked me a few questions, asked me to do a quick walk back and forth, then sent me to the photographer who quickly measured my height, before taking a few frontal and profile pictures of me. AND THAT WAS IT, END OF CASTING.
Since we still had some time to spare before the jury announced the results, my boyfriend and I dediced to grab a bite to eat in the same shopping mall, while he tried to pep-talk me and encourage me to think positive. I knew that my chances of being selected were slim but we both tried to remain positive. After a quick meal we headed back to the casting location and waited to hear if my number would be called out. Unfortuately I was one of the contestants who didn’t make it. The jury encouraged us to keep trying and reminded us that just because we weren’t selected, it didn’t mean that we weren’t good. I couldn’t help but feel tears building up so we quickly gathered our belongings and left.
I’m honestly not sure if my age was the main contributing factor to their decision. Perharps there were other reasons or maybe I just wasn’t what they were looking for. All I know is that everything happens for a reason and although it pained me to be rejected, I’m sure there are many many more opportunities out there. I just have to keep trying until I find the right one(s) for me. I know that the modelling industry is a very tough industry and and I know that I’ll face many challenges along the way, but I also know that my determination to succeed is strong enough and that somewhere somehow, I’ll make it in life. The truth is, at some point in our lives we’re all bound to fail at something, whether we like it or not. The secret however is to never let failure stop you from accomplishing what you’ve set out to achieve. So whatever challenge comes your way I’d encourage everyone to just keep keeping on!